Hi everyone.. I found this site while I was on Google trying to find help in boosting my self esteem. I have been struggling with this my entire life, which has led me to unhealthy relationships and losing my ability to believe I am good enough. I am a single mom to a wonderful 15yr old boy. I do have a lot of great things in my life and am very successful. I attend Alanon meetings and I am very involved in the program, but my self esteem is still as bad as the day I walked in. I am so tired of being this way. I literally hide from the camera and get anxiety when people take pictures of me. It shows as well and is embarrassing. I have been told recently by 2 different friends that they think I have bodymorphic disorder and they are probably right. I won't even post a picture of myself without editing it. I was heavier my entire life and as I got older I did lose a lot of weight where people didn't even recognize me or will tell me how different I look, etc., but I still see myself as that childhood girl. I can't live this way anymore. I don't even go on dates, because I am afraid of what guys are going to think of me. I don't know if I was supposed to post all this in here and I'm sorry if I shouldn't have. I am really looking forward to suggestions. Thank you.