I have an issue here: I'm suffering with both anxiety and depression, so I'm very interested in healing myself and doing my life as livable as possible. One of those 'wonderful' things one can do to help oneself and calm down, is mindfulness on breath, ex. sitting or laying down and only focus on my breath. There's only one problem to it: I did it many times (took also guided meditation series such as "breathing for higher consciousness"), but whenever I start concentrating on breathing, I get the opposite effect: instead of relaxing and calming down, I start hyperventilating and feel as if I'm not getting enough oxygen. I tried it quite a couple of times, and every time I felt the same. The thing I find most relaxing is when I focus my attention AWAY from my breath, then I don't get any muscle spasm. I know one has to "just let the breath go, without controlling it", but for me it doesn't work - it gets unpleasant for me anyway. I actually start shaking and getting more nervous, trying to accept the feeling, but... to no avail. Same thing with diaphragmatic breathing: I try to concentrate, but it's there where I start hyperventilating and getting a feeling as if I need to gasp after more air (similar to experiences with panic attacks, where one hyperventilates and needs a plastic bag to calm down). I read some litterature about the breathing, but there was no place mentioned about the problems I experience. So I feel weird. Any ideas on how I can solve this issue?